Not a good day today. Had a breakdown thinking of my past and all that it includes. It was a bit rough but I am better now. Might have something to do with my med schedule being a bit off lately.
I was diagnosed late in life with Bipolar II and ADHD among a few others. My childhood was full of abuse and neglect. I learned from an early age how to take care of myself. Occasionally I surprised myself. Occasionally I was able to avoid the daily abuse. Occasionally I got into bed at night, proud to have made it through one more day. Occasionally I realize how truly fucked up I have become...
I absolutely hate it when I have days that I ruminate on the past. It's completely counter-productive. Hope today is a better day.
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