I am hoping to be able to get myself motivated tomorrow. Lots that needs to be done around the house that I have been putting off. My wife is a trooper for putting up with it. I mean I sit around all day in one of my emotional trenches, pissed at myself and able to do nothing productive. Meanwhile she comes home from work, does chores, dinner and all kinds of crap. Of course this makes me feel worse, the guilt, and I get even lower than I was. Its a screwed up vicious cycle. I need to figure out something to help. Rolling the dice and hoping I wake up in an upswing or slightly manic mode is just not paying off.